The Deep Truth Comes Rolling Out…


#truthtime #journalentry

It’s time to get real…I’ve been keeping a lot of feelings, fears, etc locked away for a very long time. I’m not hiding them anymore…they are perfectly valid and I need to give permission for them to float on versus tucking them deeper in shame or fear of what others may think…let this phase of healing begin 

This was written to be posted in my daughter’s private group a month ago today…I chickened out. I wasn’t ready to release these deep thoughts out into the Universe just yet. I’m now ready to let it go. However, I decided that I want to keep her group the sacred space of hope that it is…so it is now becoming a blog. I have dated it the date of the writing so that as I add in additional past writings, the blog flows and makes sense in chronological order…here goes!

This is another tough one to share but it’s time. My daughter does not have an autism diagnosis, but I can relate on so many levels to this mother’s words and experiences. The world of special needs can bring so much pain and struggle that the general public cannot even fathom. I once read about a study discussing parents of children with special needs demonstrating the same medical findings as soldiers suffering with PTSD after being at war. Not surprising. The day in day out levels of stress are unimaginable to those outside the home. They are even unimaginable to the spouse not doing the primary care taking, medical management, etc. There is no time to work on healing from the stress, there is too much to be done that should have happened yesterday… or a week ago. And, the financial aspects. That’s a whole facet on its own that puts an entirely complicating spin on the already existing chaos. It is beyond ones imagination unless you have lived it. Continue reading “The Deep Truth Comes Rolling Out…”


The Power of Intuition

I rarely share about my daughter’s journey publicly but, this one. This one right here. I bring you…drum roll please…a message from the girl who “will never walk without surgery” according to a world-renowned pediatric podiatrist as well as a world-renowned pediatric orthopedic surgeon. Never give up hope…if your heart tells you to follow a path, follow it. If God, the Universe, Buddha, whatever spiritual force you like to call the Creator Of All That Is places something in your heart, your mind, your knowing…listen whilst ignoring the words of man (yes, even the “experts”) even if your confidence shakes. If something feels “not right”, it’s not. Listen to that voice. I have heard a brilliant woman, Sonia ODonnell McGowin say, “Speak your truth, even if your voice shakes.” My voice is no longer shaking. So many times for a few years I said, “I know she will walk. I know it,” while my voice was shaking. My human mind had a hard time believing it, but my spiritual self knew it to be so. I knew people thought I had unrealistic beliefs relative to my child. But, I also knew my truth…deep inside, even when I questioned the words coming from my own mouth at times. There are no coincidences. My baby has had so many earth angels walk into her life and they have all played a role in her standing (literally, she stands now 💗) where she stands today. My baby is learning to run now…and we never did surgery. You can say The Universe is Amazing. You can say God is Good. You can call it whatever you want…it’s true. It’s all the same, just different words. And, I am blessed. This has been an incredibly rewarding and challenging journey, but this chapter of hurdles is on the verge of closing.
Standing ✔️
Walking ✔️
Dancing ✔️
Running, skipping and jumping straight ahead!!